Because I'm a breast cancer "victoria" (some people call themselves survivors, some claim to be victors, and I'm a female victor, so that makes me a victoria), people often invite me to speak for breast cancer fund raisers and to walk in solidarity on breast cancer walks. I seldom do it because while I think it's noble to raise money to fund research, I'm far more interested in a much larger perspective. The fund raising tends to focus on "fighting the fight for a cure" and in my experience it tends to involve a good deal of hand wringing, weepin' and wailin', and generalized focus on the problem.
What I know is that we can't solve the problem at the level at which we created it.
Now what does that mean in terms of breast cancer?
The cosmic 2X4 message is to wake up to our own good, to release the illusion of anything "out there" creating the problem. The reality is that we create it and it's a form of self destruction.
I have two recommendations for sources to explore on this topic.
First, check out what Louise Hay says in her classic book You Can Heal Your Life about the meaning of breast cancer and what it represents when it manifests.
Second, my accountant, who is a spiritual man, recently recommended Feelings Buried Alive Never Die by Karol K. Truman. Since I have it right at hand I'll quote what she lists as probable feelings causing ill-ness or dis-ease manifesting as cancer of females organs:
- Repressed anger (usually at male authroity figures)
- Feeling an emptiness in life
- Unresolved resentments
- Feelings of hostility being repressed
- Rejecting the self
- Feeling of despair
- Feelings of lonliness being repressed
- Poor relationship with parents
- Inability to cope with a traumatic loss
- Feelings of hopelessness/helplessness being repressed
- Mental depression
- Holding on to deep anger, resentment, hate, revenge or jealousy
- Not open to "light" or divine help
- Subconscious death wish
We can't afford any of these if we want to be truly well. One thing that is especially good about Truman's book is that she offers ideas for how to free ourselves from the self-imposed, limiting thoughts that create dis-ease.
It's our pygmy selves that keep us in thought patterns that require cosmic 2X4s like breast cancer to get our attention. Let's recognize it for the gift that it is. If we miss the more subtle versions of the lessons, we can be sure to get the cosmic 2X4 version. It's still a gift.
More on the pygmy self another day. All that's really important anyway is to wake up to what's really going on and BE that knowing, loving life from broader perspective.